My client experienced three lifetimes.
The first was in spirit form after the end of the life, where my client was observing the affluent people he belonged to in that life but had chosen to be different and wasn’t accepted by them. He had stood up for what was right, having inner strength and integrity, which the Higher Self wanted my client to see that he needs to be himself and not try to be somebody he is not.
The second life was about a gay lover who didn’t stand up and be seen for what he believed, which ended up costing both his lover’s and his life in a very tragic end.
And the third life was about the life of a young boy who was the only male left in the village, then becoming a warrior and with his inner strength and energy winning a battle to save his land and people. His Higher Self I wanted him to see what’s possible, when you surround yourself with that energy and that strength.
C: It’s like an outdoor pool room
M: Describe what you’re seeing in detail for me
C: A woman pale brown hair done up in an ornate bun and it looks like it’s around the 1920’s and people are beautifully dressed and she’s beautiful too, she’s talking to someone that I can’t see
M: Describe in detail about her hair, this room, this area that you’re in
C: Her hair is beautiful, it’s really beautifully braided, she looks really well cared for and she’s got this drifty beautiful chiffon dress, she’s very confident. Everyone seems to be having a really nice time. It’s like a big conservatory with big tiles making a pattern on the floor, like a big star. It has lots of windows but no roof.
M: What else do you see surrounding the area?
C: Some hills, some soft sort of gently rolling hills in the distance, in the horizon, it looks like the sun’s setting.
M: Come back to where you’re standing and describe more of what you sense.
C: I’m standing there. I don’t know if anything there could see me, but it looks like a really affluent gathering of people, they’re all very well mannered and beautiful.
M: What do you mean?
C: Well actually, I don’t think I’m really dressed to be there
M: Tell me more about that
C: I wasn’t expecting to go there, so I’m not really dressed up for the occasion. I just dropped in on this party.
M: I see, I want you to look down at your feet, tell me what you have over your feet?
C: Actually my feet are bare.
M: As you look at your bare feet, is there anything you notice.
C: They look a bit gnarly and rough, so I think I’m in the wrong place.
M: Slowly look up, what’s covering your body over your legs?
C: Just a really sort of rough looking brown garment, I don’t know what to say. It’s like a tunic thing down to my knees, it doesn’t really fit in with the other people
M: And this rough looking tunic, is there anything you have around your waist?
C: Yes like a cord, it’s holding everything together
M: Look up towards your neckline and arms, does this tunic cover this area?
C: Well it has sleeves on it and I think my arms are quite muscular and I’ve got a dark beard
M: Describe hair and eyes
C: Curly dark hair and green eyes. I’m quite beautiful actually, I’m not the same as these people. I have an olive complexion and I’m quite handsome. I’m just standing there, I can’t even notice that anybody can see me.
M: See as you’re standing there, what it is that you’re there for, you have come there for a reason?
C: I’ve just come to see how they live, I think I’m just an observer.
M: An observer, tell me more about that
C: I’ve come to see how these very wealthy people live. Just because I’m interested to see how other people live.
M: Why is that
C: A bit of an adventure really
M: I see, you enjoy observing , are you sort of hiding as you’re doing this?
C: Not really hiding, but it’s really weird like it looks like people can’t see me. I think I might just go get some food and a glass of champagne
M: Tell me what happens when you do that. Are you able to pick up the glass, pour the champagne?
C: Yes and I’ve got some pretty fancy food, the waiter didn’t say anything
M: Did he see you
C: Don’t think so, this is pretty cool, and I’m just watching how these people talk to each other. And how they, interact…. it’s interesting, it’s like I just landed here, I don’t know what I’m doing here though, except for just observing them…. and just having a bit of an adventure.
M: Very good
C: But I can’t… it’s funny like the waiters got the tray of champagne in one hand and a tray of hors d’oeuvres in the other and even makes a bit of a movement as I take the glass and some food, and he doesn’t even notice
M: When you touch the glass or the food, do you feel that in your hand?
C: Yes
M: Very good and yet he doesn’t really see you
C: No….I went right in front of him
M: If you put your hand out and actually feel his arm or his hand, are you able to do that…does he react?
C: No….I’m touching his forearm and sort of squeezing it, but he’s not reacting.
M: How long have you been doing that, observing people? These kinds of adventures?
C: I don’t really know….I just thought. I’d drop in, just having a look. That’s pretty good isn’t it?
M: Yes absolutely, what do you do if you want to go somewhere else and look at some others… How do you do that?
C: I don’t know, I just think, I can’t remember if I’ve done it before, but maybe this is a big adventure and I think of going somewhere else.
M: Tell me more about that?
C: You know what… I wonder if it’s a good idea to be invisible? I don’t know whether I can make myself visible or not, I can see myself but I don’t know, well I could try going somewhere else and letting people see me.
M: Why don’t you do that and see what happens? Tell me how you do this.
C: I think I might just go over to those beautiful hills and where the sun’s setting and see what’s going to happen there.
M: How do you get there?
C: Well I’m kind of just flying over there…..just off the ground but it’s quite quick. It’s just some hills with some sheep on it and the sun’s coming down like a big weight onto the horizon.
M: Besides being here and going from here to there where else can you go, since you can just move so quickly?
C: Well.. I’ve just gone to a farm and there’s a cow shed and there’s lots of cows lining up waiting to be milked. They’re near the hills.
M: You can just hover here and there and everywhere?
C: It seems to be… yes
M: Do the cows see you at all? Or know that you’re there, if you go up and touch them?
C: I’ll go and see…..Yes they know I’m there..But the others couldn’t..it’s funny that, but I feel quite at home in the cow shed, I’m just sitting on the fence, you know chatting to the cows and they’re just looking at me and having some food.
M: So where you actually go places like the wall or the door, do you have to open the door to go through it?
C: No, I just got there. Thought about it and I just got there and there I was. Maybe I can just decide whether I want to be invisible or visible too…Which is a pretty good talent to have I think.
M: Did you decide to be visible for the cows?
C: I didn’t actually consciously decide but they just seemed to know I was there and I gave them a pat.
( I move him from that scene to another time of importance in that lifetime)
C: I think I can see soldiers….they’re around me and I’m scared, we’re in a forest.
M: Are you young or older?
C: Younger
M: Tell me what’s going on with these soldiers, what are you wearing?
C: I’ve got some rough clothes on but I’ve got trousers and boots on. And they’ve got these axe things.
M: What kind of axe things?
C: Like little axes.
M: Is this what they use to fight?
C: Yes
M: Do you have one too?
C: No I don’t, I don’t have very much at all, I’m just quite cunning and clever.
M: What do you mean?
C: I’m in this forest and I’m kind of trying to blend in with all the leaves on the ground, so they won’t see me.: And they haven’t seen me yet, and I’m just trying to hide from them, cause I don’t know, they seem to be really aggressive. I don’t know whether they are looking for me or just looking for someone there, but I’m really scared of them.
M: Describe what happens?
C: Well.. we’re by a river now, I’ve been here before and yes this is my property and the soldiers are on my property. I think they’ve come to arrest me.
M: Why would they want to arrest you?
C: Cause they think I’ve done the wrong thing. There’s a fast flowing river and I’m kind of really close to the ground trying for them not to see me and I’m really scared.
M: Just allow time to progress here and tell me what takes place here, as the day and time moves on.
C: I’m getting tired and they want to find me.
M: Are you able to move as they’re looking for you?
C: Yes, I’m staying really really close to the ground though. They’re in the distance, I can hear them, I did see them closer before, but they’ve gone in the distance looking somewhere else, but I don’t know what to do, i’can’t go in the river. And the sun’s started to set, so they can’t look for me forever.
M: Why do they want you?
C: They think I’m a bad person but I’m not…they’ve been told to arrest me
M: Why are they arresting you?
C: Because I have a lover that I shouldn’t have
M: Tell me more about that?
C: Well it’s illegal
M: What do you mean it’s illegal?
C: To be with another man
M: I see, tell me more about it?
C: They found out about him and I love him so much and we always had to hide from everyone so that they wouldn’t know our secret, but someone informed and we’re in a lot of trouble, I don’t know where he is right now.
M: Can you tell me more about him?
C: He’s beautiful and I love him so much, but he’s not allowed to be anywhere out, has to stay inside the house and I feel so sad for him.
M: Is that because of you and him?
C: That’s right, so at least that’s what I think it’s about, but they want to hunt me down like a fox. They’ve been running through my property actually and I should be standing up to them and telling them NO. They should get off my property, but they won’t and now because I feel so guilty, I’m running away from them when I should be standing up to them and for my partner as well… and I’m not, I’m just being a coward and I’m hiding and I should be better than that.
(I move him forward into the day)
C: They got him too. They’ve got him from the house, he’s a prisoner and I can’t see the point in going on and running away from them, if they’ve got him, so I just give up.
M: What do you do?
C: I let them see me…cause I’m not a man, I cannot even stand up and tell them to go away, they’ve got him, they might as well go ahead and take me too. Cause I just want to be with him, even though I’m a coward.
M: What happens as you become visible to them.
C: Well they take us both to the square in the town and already there’s lots of people there watching and we don’t even have a court hearing, it’s just some person, who said “is that true “and we both said “yes”, so they’re going to kill us.
M: What are they going to do?
C: They’re going to hang us, I’m not even scared, I’m just so ashamed of myself for not standing up and I think I deserve it. All the people are cheering, some of these people had even worked for me before and now because they see who we really are… they want us dead, they don’t care, It’s like a bloodlust in the crowd, they just want us killed, they think we are horrible creatures but we’re not.
(At this point, I ask him to see things as an observer and not feel discomfort or pain)
C: They put nooses on and they do that thing where they cut you open.
M: What do you mean cut you open?
C: They cut your stomach open, it’s horrible and the crowd it’s like they’re scented with blood and they’re just yelling and yelling and cheering.
(I ask him to take his last breath and move him out of the body to the other side and to tell me what he learned in that lifetime.)
C: I feel it was to have courage and stand up for what’s right for what I believe in and not try to hide and be invisible, to tell people what I think is right and stand up for who I love. I have to learn to be who I am and not try to hide, not try to fit in and pretend I’m like other people, I’ve got to say who I am.
M: Is there anything else you learnt or do you feel there was a purpose besides that?
C: I feel that I should love and be free to love and in turn free other people to experience pure love. Also not feel guilty if I cannot learn a lesson, then I shouldn’t feel that I have failed at everything.
M: I want you to see what you do now in this form of spirit that you are.
C: We’re still together…we’re still together
( We leave that spirit to continue in its o\path and move to another lifetime)
C: I feel it kind of looks like the Grand Canyon, lots of rocks and yes it’s all rocky bits and it looks like I’m in a native American village camp, and there’s lots of tents, leather tents.
M: Describe what you’re seeing here?
C: There’s a little river going through and it’s nice, I’m just a fairly small person.
M: Describe yourself to me?
C: Just a little kid. I’ve got long black shiny hair and I’m quite happy. I just want to play and I can’t see any other kids.
M: Tell me what’s happening here in this village, this place?
C: We’re down near the river, I think I’m just with all the mothers doing the washing and they’re happy, I’m just the only kid though
M: So you’re on your own?
C: Yes, except for the older people there, I’m the only child. I’m not sure what I’m supposed to be doing and I’m a bit curious. I wanted to look in the different tents and see how people live there. I’m a bit lonely, cause I’d like some other children to play with and there’s a dog but mostly just the mothers . They must have children… but I don’t know where the children are and the mothers are doing what mothers do, grinding grain. They will talk to me a little bit, but they don’t really want me around too much, cause I’m a bit of a pest.
M: What do you mean you’re a bit of a pest?
C: Oh.. cause I’m really curious and I want to know ..”what are you doing this for “..and they are wanting to talk to each other and I’m just a bit annoying. But I Just want some other kids to play with and I don’t know where they are.
M: I see, how old are you roughly?
C: Maybe eight. It feels like I’m just curious and bored at the same time, I just don’t know where they are. There’s lots and lots of mothers but I haven’t seen any fathers and I haven’t seen any other kids. They seem to be just doing what they do, but I just don’t know where all the kids have gone.
(I move my client to another time importance in that same lifetime)
C: It’s funny … I’m riding a horse which reminds me of this life. I had a black and white horse and this one is also black and white, and this horse is my bestest friend
M: Are you older or are you younger here?
C: I’m older and we’re going into battle. There’s some people that want to take our land. I think they killed all the fathers and the children. I think they did and I’m riding alone to try and defend my village. I wondered where the fathers and the children were but I think they might have all been killed.
M: What are you doing there with the horse?
C: I am riding into battle with these people, that I guess they’re European people, who want to take our land, and I’m adamant… they’re not going to. I’m really the only sort of grown man that they’ve got to defend the whole village and I’m doing it and I’m riding straight into them.
M: What happens now as you do this?
C: They look at me like they can’t believe it, that there’s just one person on a horse ready to ride straight into their pack of people and I’m doing it anyway and they run away cause I’ve got such power. I’m saying you are not going to take our land and I just put across this energy that they all get scared and run away, but I’ve got no one to celebrate with, it’s just me and my horse.
M: You did what you needed to do
C: I did and it felt great
M: See what happens when you go back to the village, what takes place?
C: I turn my horse, I ride back, the women are doing what they are doing, they look up and they see and there’s something different about me now, I have this energy about me.. that I’m a warrior and they can see that and they all come up to me on my horse and they just congratulate me and they are so happy and they treat me as one of theirs now.
(I move my client to another time of importance and significance)
C: I’m very old and I’m very wise and tell stories to the new people in the village because all the mothers have died. There are new children and new people in our tribe …in our village and I’m the wiseman and I just sit around the fire and I tell stories. They look up to me and I’m happy about that. I notice that I’ve got a lot of grey in my hair and a lot of wrinkles, so I’m very old, but I have their respect and their reverence really. And I feel like I’ve lived
(I move my client to the last day of that lifetime)
C: I know that I’m dying and that I will give myself back to the great Mother Earth. I’m happy with what I’ve achieved in my life and all the villagers around me dressing me up beautifully, they all know i’m dying too, it’s not a scary thing. It’s a great thing and people are starting to gather to celebrate with me. I feel so happy and proud. I just feel like it’s such a big adventure to go through this next stage and I’m so very, very pleased with myself.
(I move my client through the end of the life to the other side to see the lessons and purpose of that life.)
C: I feel very satisfied with myself and the lessons I have learned were courage and even something else that I know now. That I can surround myself with a certain energy, that people recognise a certain power and they can’t harm me when I have this power.
M: Wonderful, is there anything else that you learnt in that lifetime?
C: I learnt to be alone.
M: What do you feel was the purpose of that life?
C: To discover my power
M: You certainly achieved that
C: I did and it made me feel very strong and proud that I did this by myself.
M: Is there anything else that you see as you look back at that life?
C: I just gained a lot of respect for myself and respect from other people and I felt strong.
(We begin the discussions with the Higher Self)
M: Why did you show (my client) the first lifetime, how is it relevant to the current life?
HS: Because he needs to stand up, be strong, have integrity and stand up for what’s right.
M: Has he not done that in this life?
HS: Sometimes he’s a bit afraid
M: Where’s that fear of not standing up for what’s right coming from? Did it begin from the life he was the lover that didn’t’ stand up for what was right?
HS: Yes because he felt so sad, weakened by being a coward and worrying about what other people thought and ultimately that was such a terrible thing, because nobody cared, no one. They only cared about the principal, not the people.
M: Where is he holding this fear?
HS: In his heart
M: Is that the only place he’s holding this fear of not standing up for what is right?
HS: No his legs and his right leg in particular because right is right and he’s not standing up straight and it’s on the right. So he’s not standing up for what’s right.
M: Please release that from his heart chakra, the sadness he died with in that life for not having the courage to stand up for what was right and also remove it from his legs the fear that is there. He had initially explained to me prior earlier, a feeling of gripping in his right leg, like a steel claw over his leg, if you could please release that for him.
HS: Yes….(some time later) It’s done
M: At the end of that life where he was being killed, he could see there were people who once worked for him in the crowd… cheering for his blood. Did that feeling of betrayed carry forward into this lifetime.
HS: Yes
M: And did that betrayal somehow intertwine with him not standing up for his rights
HS: Yes that’s correct
M: Could I please ask where he’s holding this fear of betrayal?
HS: In his pelvic area
M: Is that the sacral chakra between the hips?
HS: Yes
M: How’s that affecting him on a physical level in this life?
HS: It’s making him very slow, he doesn’t want to be slow, he wants to do things, get things done, not just be so slow.
M: So has that also been some of the physical problems with regard to his hips and his lower back?
HS: Yes
M: Did that have anything to do with not feeling supported, both in that life and this lifetime
HS: yes..very much
M: Where is he holding this fear of not being supported?
HS: In his back
M: Is that in the same region, behind the pelvic region or upper
HS: All the way, spine, pelvis
M: Could you please release the fear of betrayal from the pelvic region, his sacral chakra, his hips, his lower spine, from that lifetime and every other lifetime that it affected him, including this life please.
HS: Yes….( some time later) …It’s done
M: Could you also release the fear of not being supported from that life and every other lifetime including this one from his spines back and pelvic area?
HS:….. It’s done
M: Thank you, initially you showed him as a man around affluent people, he didn’t belong in that environment. It seemed he was unseen and he was able to drift from that place to the hills by flying there, the cows could see him but the people were not able to. It almost sounded like he was in a spirit form at that time. What were you trying to show him?
HS: They were his people when he was alive, but he never felt he belonged.
M: Was that the same man that was killed for loving another man or was this a different life all together.
HS: Different life. He used to belong, he was one of these people but they never accepted him, because he was different. For some reason he never really fitted in but he was born into this world but he decided to be different, he just decided to be who he was, rather then just fit in with the people that he actually belonged to and because he was different they didn’t accept and they didn’t recognise him, because he didn’t do what everyone else did.
M: So after he passed he was still hovering around and looking and observing these people in how they were living and behaving, but not being seen by them.
HS: That’s right.
M: What did you want him to understand from all of that, that is relevant to his current life?
HS: That he needs to be himself and not try to be somebody he is not.
M: It’s interesting the next life you showed him a scene of the man hiding from the soldiers and trying to not be seen, he didn’t have the courage to stand up to be seen
Is he still having difficulties in this life of being accepted and recognised for who he is?
HS: Yes
M: Is he still carrying the fear of not being seen for who he truly is in this lifetime?
HS: Yes
M: Did that begin from that life of that man who was gay?
HS: Yes, it was all about acceptance and courage
M: Where is he holding this fear?
HS: In his upper back …his heart chakra
M: Please release that fear from that initial lifetime and every other lifetime that it affected him, including this life.
HS: Yes….It’s done
M: The scenes of his connections with the cows seeing him in spirit and later his horse as a warrior, what did you want him to know about that?
HS: That he can always gain strength from these animals, that they understand him.
M: You showed him quite a bit about him being an observer and observing how things are. Is that somehow showing up in this life, where he’s observing and not actually interacting.
HS: He does do that sometimes, so as not to get too involved, he would stay on the sidelines sometimes…. sometimes not. But sometimes it’s safer to keep your distance.
M: It’s interesting as you say that, it reminds me of our conversations earlier, where he told me about a person at a course who decided not to interact.. to feel safe. Was that a reflection for him to see himself?
HS: Yes ….I can see parts of his personality there.
M: In the life you showed where he felt unsafe as that man who was gay, he stayed in the outskirts of his own property instead of standing up, and lacked courage to get them out. Did that initially begin from that life, the fear of being unsafe?
HS: Yes
M: How else is it affecting him in this life, the feeling of not being safe?
HS: Many.. many ways where he won’t often stand up and when he has, sometimes he’s been let down, so he just became smaller and smaller.
M: Did that have anything to do with him in this life, not being able to actually walk on uneven grounds or sit on chairs that were not stable or anything that had instability.
HS: Yes because he never felt secure,
M: Where is he holding this fear of being unsafe and insecure.
HS: This is in the solar plexus
M: Could you please release that, from that initial life and every other life that affected him
HS: Yes ….done
M: He also mentioned in the first life as a spirit, that he could be visible if he wanted to or not be visible if he wanted to. Why did you showed that expression to him?
HS: That will also keep him safe …in dangerous situations.
M: Can he be fully visible and truely be himself and not have to try to be invisible now?
HS: Yes.
M: In that life, the soldiers were carrying weapons but he didn’t need to, because he was cunning and clever blending with the leaves where he can’t be seen. Does he at all try to blend in with the environment of what is going on around him, so he doesn’t stand out in this life?
HS: Yes, he wont need to do this so much now
M: Was there anything else from that life that he should know about?
HS: He needs to have courage, needs to believe in himself and stands up for what he feels is right. More like becoming a brighter colour rather than wishy washy.
M: He also felt guilty in that life. Is any part of that guilt stopping him from being courageous this lifetime?
HS: Yes
M: Tell me how that is affecting him?
HS: It’s stops him from doing things that he could be magnificent in, but he chooses to be bland in order to fit in, to blend in. t’s easier to just stay as one of the millions, instead of just standing out, because when you stand out you might get some terrible thing happen to you. Because at least if you blend in with the crowd no one’s going to find you.
M: Where is he holding this guilt?
HS: The heart
M: Did it begin from that life that you showed us as that man.
HS: There have been many
M: Could we go back to the initial life where this guilt began, so we can release it from that point.
HS: He let somebody be buried alive, because he wouldn’t stand up.
M: Was that another lifetime?.
HS: Yes, it was like a landslide or people filling in some big hole and there was a little kid and he just allowed it to happen, he could have gone in there and saved them or tried to save them, but he didn’t… because he was scared, he was scared of all this falling dirt and so he just didn’t do it, he thought maybe it will be too late anyway.
M: Besides the heart, is he holding this guilt anywhere else?
HS: In the Sacral
M: Did that life also affect his legs, that he didn’t stand up again for what was right?
HS: Yes
M: Could you please release the guilt from his sacral chakra, his heart and also his legs, from that original lifetime and any other lifetime to the current life.
HS: Yes…he has to learn to forgive herself.
M: Once you do that release, let me know and we can look at the forgiveness.
HS: Yes….. it’s done
M: Wonderful, he also held shame right at the end of his life before he was executed, he felt he deserved it, because he didn’t stand up. How is that showing up in his current life?
HS: Again by being small.
M: Where is he holding this shame?
HS: In his shoulders.
M: Please release that from that lifetime?
HS: Yes….it’s done
M: Did any of this affect expressing himself in this life?
HS: Sometimes
M: Could you please release that from that life and every other lifetime, including this life please, so he can have full self expression.
HS: Yes
M: Wonderful thank you. Then you showed him the third life of a young warrior, why did you want him to see that life?
HS: I wanted him to see what’s possible when you surround yourself with that energy, that strength.
M: Does he know that energy and strength?
HS: Yes
M: Then why did he need to be reminded?
HS: Because he forgot
M: That was a very beautiful satisfying life for him, but also there was a lot of courage standing up to all those people, such a contrast to that other life you showed.
HS: Yes
M: What else does he need to understand from that life?
HS: What’s possible and how to be the best you can. Even if you don’t feel like you’ve got support, you can still do your best and shine.
M: And you said his purpose was to discover his power, how interesting. A whole life to discover that and he knows this power in this lifetime, but he’s forgotten?
HS: Yes
M: It’s a wonderful thing you brought it forward for him to remember now.
HS: Thank you
M: Was there anything else you wanted him to know from that lifetime?
HS: Just want him to know that he can shine brightly. He will need to keep clearing the guilt and shame, he will need to keep standing up.
M: I think to help him with that, are we able to do a forgiveness for himself?
HS: That would be good
M: Could you please allow him to be in a space where he can forgive others, those who betrayed him, through other lifetimes but especially in this lifetime where he felt betrayed. Once he has done that, he can then allow to forgive himself. To feel that deep within his heart the forgiveness for himself. mThose who didn’t didn’t accept him for who he was, it was because he wasn’t accepting himself for who he was and to let that all go and accept and love himself unconditionally, and feel that within his heart.
HS: Yes he does
M: He wants to write a book… he keeps procrastinating.
HS: Yes he’s got the idea but he didn’t feel that he would fit in.
M: Is there anything else that we need to release so that he can know that he can fit in anywhere and be accepted anywhere.
HS: He can, because he needs to draw on the warrior spirit and surround himself with that energy and people will be attracted and want to tell him their stories.
M: He has chronic pain, we’ve already understood what that is from, is there anything else we need to understand?
HS: No he just needs to remember to stand tall
M: Wonderful, how will he be feeling after this session that may feel different for him?
HS: He may at first feel a little dazed, because he’s processing a lot of things, but after that he will feel so fine and so in control and know he’s just managing his energy now.
M: Is there a final message?
HS: Yes, tell him he’s is loved
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